it has been harder than normal to swallow my regret today. and something is in the corner of my mouth, and I think it’s a pill i just can’t seem to get down. It taste like fear but has the sensation of disappointment. But something about the way it is stuck in the back of my throat kind of tastes like self loathing. I’m usually good at taking medicine. It was been uncommonly hard to swallow these pills today. And the lump in my throat just keeps getting bigger. I need to find a way to swallow. Because these emotions are escaping their hiding place and falling out of my mouth at a rate that is alarmingly rapid.